Crush...

I feel like a little kid, LOL...but I have the hugest crush on this guy I work with. He's tall, bald, dark chocolate, can sing, play the piano...he's just scrumptious. When I first started working for AT&T a year ago, he was one of my trainers, and he was the nicest person ever! A year later, I'm still feeling the same way about him. I've let my emotions get the best of me though, I used to say hi and greet him with a hug and quick conversation. The more my feelings grew for him, the less I communicated with him. In my mind I'm looking thirsty, and giving away the fact that I like him. I pretty much shunned him away, he's noticed too because now I can see his discomfort when he tries to talk to me. I don't know if he knows I like him, or he's being awkward as a result of my awkwardness.

I know you're thinking, why don't I just man up and tell him....I work at a place where if one person knows your business, THE WORLD will know your business. If I tell him, it will be all over the floor, then all over the city. Gossip, gossip. On top of that, it would probably make me feel even more awkward towards him if he expresses opposition towards my feelings. Then I'll straight up feel like a retard, I don't like rejection.

So I'll just keep my feelings to myself and keep swooning over him...in my mind. LOL